My first Mother's day without my mother on the world

This is the first year of Mother day, but my mother was passed away. She was accomplished with for 53 years. There were so many memory. It is shame that when she was alive I did not usually get along with her. I was focused on my business, I was busied in my family. She gave me an unconditional love.
Last Wednesday night in the church, pastor asked 6 children stood after him, when he shared some works, these 6 children share their love word to their mothers. Suddenly, I was wept, I did not know why, indeed I know because my mother is not exist in this world.
If I was in Taiwan, church will prepare some flower to memory our mother, I will choose white flower this year, but here are not this custom in my Bethel Baptist Church. Pastor gave us a very good sermon. Church showed a video of a family children said some words to their moths, very interesting and lovely children.
My mother prepared many food for us. I could eat whatever food she put on the table without fear that it would harm me. Although she made me eat things I didn't like, I knew she did so because they were good for me. I knew she had my best interest in mind.
This is the kind of relationship we have with God. God's care around me.